Musing

today’s Musing written and published from south Calgary, near Fish Creek Park

2C/40F, yesterday’s Chinook wind leftovers make a warm overcast start, steady breeze, Gusta chased a squirrel as school buses broke the quiet

for each day’s new task, wrinkle or concept - I leap to it a little slower - trying to simplify my life but most days seems more complex just the same, with a few scenery changes tossed in; the view from here is good - few obstacles in my path; I like to walk very early, at the end of moonlight, about dawn, to see dawn before anyone; most days it is the same, but when it is different I want to see it first, to see differences before anyone else

I’ve looked in books, in the mirror, inexperienced hard knocks, watched children and young adults – my own and others – the answer is not there, outside me, in what I see; it would be convenient to see answers on the horizon, each day at dawn, but that is not where I need to be looking so much as an interior view is required

not always, not every day – I struggle; I seek change, a new view or maybe an improved pair of eyes; solutions are all within me, lined up in rows along with questions and self-doubts along side ambitions, dreams and desires – to better understand my drivers; fear doesn’t drive me – nor pride, nor ambition - its not about love and lust (though I really enjoy exploring those elements just in case), or money or power or being on top or the bottom; I look around – the answer must be lurking somewhere - because all questions have answers, because all problems have solutions – they are waiting for us to see them

I am coming to believe the complexity I often deride is really the simplicity I seek in a specially intriguing wrapper – I know I wouldn’t smile as much without it, I wouldn’t see my simple path without it, I wouldn’t be as happy without it

I’ll keep waking early, keep walking, keep asking, keep dreaming

every day . . about dawn

Mark Kolke
340,428
196.8

What do you think? Join the discussion - your comments are welcomed - please write.

To subscribe to Mark's Musings daily email distribution, write to musing@maxcomm.ca

©2007 MaxComm Communications, all rights reserved.